This is the story of Jay Hopper aka Hopper, a former bike racer still dealing with the trauma of losing his boyfriend in a bike crash, and Arrow Ambrose, a driver on the cusp of choosing between NASCAR or the NRR or indie racing division but also broken. The story first starts in the past when Arrow was Dylan Lorhaven brother to Jace or Lorhaven and still living at home with his parents. Arrow has always known he was gay but until the day his mother found his gay porn nobody else did. You discover his mom gave him his nickname and she accepted him as gay right away , but she warned him against telling his father who's very narrow-minded. Yet Arrow believes his dad is different so he goes to tell his father and gets sucker punched and told no gay man will be his son so stop being gay, go out with girls, and have girlfriends or no car, trust fund, no college money, and no home. Arrow is stunned and shocked but tries to conform or just fly under the radar until he turns eight, but Arrow finds it impossible. On his eighteenth birthday, his dad takes him to a strip joint and pays some girl to have sex with Arrow. He tries to get out of it, but discovers his dad will be watching on camera to see if he'll do it. Arrow can't handle trying to be someone he isn't anymore and leaves but not before his dad causes lasting damage to his self-esteem. On his way to find his brother to see he he'll help and accept him, Arrow runs into what he was told were friends of his brother, but they turn out to be rivals and what they did to Arrow is heartbreaking. Then the story moves to Hopper's past and we learn he was on the verge of breaking off into the international motorcycle racing division and dating Matt. On the day he wins the last spot on the international team when a rival challenges him to street bike race where winner takes all because the rival believes it was a lucky win. The day of the race comes and as Hopper is getting ready for the race, he gets his head hit accidentally when the door flies open. Seeing that Hopper is having troubles with dizziness and worried about him, Matt offers to take his place in the race and since they are similar nobody will know the difference. Sitting in the trailer watching what's going on with the race, Hopper notices that the rival has someone that is coming up behind Matt trying to fix the race or push the guy he thinks is Hopper off the side of the road. In desperation for the life of the man he loves, Hopper jumps on a motorcycle trying desperately to warn Matt only to watch helplessly as Matt goes over the cliff. The next thing he knows is he's in the hospital and Matt is dead. Fast forward to the present, Ron Gamble tells Hopper to take two different contracts to Arrow for him to sign choosing either NASCAR or indie racing and he has a week to get a signature on one of the contracts. For the last five years, Hopper has been battling insomnia, depression, and survival's guilt, but ever since he's seen Arrow hanging around the racetrack he's been intrigued by him but leery of letting anybody close. Since Arrow was kicked out and disowned by his father, he's been dealing with the trauma of what's happened to him and he hasn't had much in terms of friends or affection from anyone other than his brother. But everything started changing after he first met Drew and Trent then Joey, his brother's girlfriend, now he's been slowly coming out of his shell but still very wary of people's intention. On a snowy night while Arrow is working on his car at home, Hopper shows up to talk to him about the contracts, but Hopper is appalled and furious that Arrow lives in an airport hangar. Arrow has seen Hopper around the tracks, but has not had any experience really with dating since that night. The chemistry is off the charts between them, but each has been broken by the events of their respective pasts and leery of each other. Yet Hopper's fury over his living conditions and the fact that they each recognizes that they are both broken which starts a common ground between them and they both realize that it can only be all or nothing between them. Hopper is stunned that Arrow is accepting of him and sees through to his brokenness and accepts who he is. Arrow is stunned by the care and willingness to both go slow and shows him affection. The story of Hopper and Arrow is one fraught with emotional, physical, and the psychological turmoil that each must go through to be happy with each other and themselves. You will cry at parts and its completely heartbreaking at times the struggle they each go through yet through it all you will be impressed with their strength and fortitude. I hardly ever read gay books but the Gearshark series has the best ones I've ever read and they all truly show triumph and trauma especially #Junkie, #Rev, and #Blur. These three stories show just a portion of what gays go through both in their pasts, present and will still deal with in the future. Excellent series!!!
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