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Pretty Black (Pretty Broken) Kindle Edition
Iris Black
There are moments in music when the crowd becomes part of the song and we all lose ourselves to the energy. I wanted to drown myself in the music. It became my escape and my savior.
I thought success was what I wanted, but it only intensified my misery. Fame is a monster, and it ate me alive. I tried it all to get out of my head: sex, drugs, and rock and roll. I’m living the dream, but it only numbs the pain.
Caspian came into my life like a storm, and I knew he’d leave the same way.
We were two vessels made to fit. Chemistry woven in creation.
There’s no escape, there’s no surrender.
His Pretty Black forever.
But he broke me and I don’t know how to forgive him.
Is it foolish to do it all again?
To find our way back to the place it all began.
I’ve mourned his leaving so many times, I don’t have it in me to do it again.
- LanguageEnglish
- Publication dateMay 25, 2023
- File size1.1 MB
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- ASIN : B09Y45DDS5
- Publisher : GrayBooks
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- Publication date : May 25, 2023
- Language : English
- File size : 1.1 MB
- Simultaneous device usage : Unlimited
- Screen Reader : Supported
- Enhanced typesetting : Enabled
- X-Ray : Not Enabled
- Word Wise : Enabled
- Print length : 278 pages
- Page Flip : Enabled
- Part of series : Pretty Broken
- Best Sellers Rank: #74,149 in Kindle Store (See Top 100 in Kindle Store)
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Customers find the book's story intense and heart-rending, with one review noting how it explores themes of suicide and mental health. The writing quality receives positive feedback, with customers describing it as well written.
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Customers find the book's story intense and heart-rending, with emotions and struggles that feel authentic. One customer notes how the narrative explores themes of suicide and mental health, while another appreciates how it bounces around in time.
"...I love how the story bounces around in time, giving insight and background to what is happening in the present. And of course all of the song lyrics!..." Read more
"...The entire series was amazing but Iris and Caspian’s story was breathtaking and heartbreaking. It is super emotional and heavy but worth it!..." Read more
"...It was as tragic and beautiful as I expected. Iris has been damaged down to his soul and it kills Caspian to watch his suffering...." Read more
"...It was like running up the down escalator. The story itself was good, but I wasn't a fan of the way it was told...." Read more
Customers praise the writing quality of the book, with one noting it is easy to read.
"...was through out a glimmer of hope that buoyed me and made it easy for me to read and not put down—even if I were reading right before bed...." Read more
"...The author's writing is raw, gritty, honest, and breathtaking 💋🔥 "..." Read more
"Wow what an ending to Iris and Caspian. It was so well written you can feel the emotion coming through the book...." Read more
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- Reviewed in the United States on June 14, 2023Summary: This may be book 5 of the Pretty Broken series, but it is part two of Iris and Cas’s story. It picks up immediately after the end of book four. Cas, Iris, and the rest of Pretty Broken are in a lawsuit with their manager, Alexander. As a show of power, Alexander is holding up the release of their upcoming album and threatening to leak the private contents of Iris’s phone, including the last message from Iris’s dead brother. Struggling under the strain, Iris nearly breaks. Having gotten wind of this, Alexander has Iris involuntarily committed to a psych hold, further distressing Iris.
Review: This is such an intense story. The characters are deeply hurt and troubled. Their past and current trauma is visceral. It is completely understandable for them to react to their situations the way Gray portrays them. And yet, Gray balances tone so well that I never felt overwhelmed myself. Somehow, despite the characters sometimes viewing hope as more of a torture than a balm, there was through out a glimmer of hope that buoyed me and made it easy for me to read and not put down—even if I were reading right before bed. I appreciate Gray’s ability to do that because sometimes stories with dark elements or where characters experience deep trauma bring down my own mood too much for me to keep reading them.
I’m so grateful that Iris finally finds compassionate and appropriate professional help in this story. After everything he’d been through, it was good to see him start to make real progress not just with dealing with his trauma, but in learning that not everyone is untrustworthy.
I love the bond between Iris and Cas, and how Cas never gives up on Iris. I also love the bond between all of the band members. I love that even though they had been divided, this experience brought them back together and made their bonds stronger. I love the inclusion of the Pale Pink Lips guys and how they fold so easily into this found family.
I love how the story bounces around in time, giving insight and background to what is happening in the present. And of course all of the song lyrics! I just wish they were set to music.
- Reviewed in the United States on July 2, 2023“Pretty Black” is the conclusion to Iris and Caspian’s story…..
My heart…..broke…..wept…..hurt for Iris and Caspian
What a beautiful but heartbreaking rollercoaster of a story!
We knew that Iris was dealing with some pretty severe mental health issues but the gravity of it, I was not prepared for. Iris was brilliant and a musical prodigy, but he was filled with so much pain. He saw no way out of the darkness. His childhood was riddled with trauma and the life of a lead singer of the worlds most popular band put the world on his shoulders. JR Gray handle Iris’s mental health with immense care. We were immersed into the complicated mind of Iris and boy was it dark. I’ve NEVER read a story that gave such thorough insight to someone with depression and suicidal ideation. The writer took us to these dark places. We were able to see the world through Iris’s eyes. We felt his pain, we saw the dangerous and damaging coping mechanisms he used, we hurt for him for the loss of his brother and how he wished he could have done more. We stood on the edge with him.
Iris’s relationship with Caspian’s was toxic and codependent as hell. Caspian was everything. He wanted the best for Iris and loved him despite his struggles. My heart really sympathized with Cas. How he loved Iris so much when Iris didn’t love himself? How he dealt with not knowing if he would see Iris in the next moment? How he was there when Iris was literally on the edge of ending it all? Caspian’s helplessness….was thoroughly felt. What he thought was the right thing to do, sometimes wasn’t and the consequences impacted Iris immensely. Caspian was the definition of being optimistic but it wasn’t enough. He wanted a life with Iris but yet Iris couldn’t see himself living. We really saw the struggles of loving someone who is consumed with so much pain and trauma and the mental effects it has on their loved ones.
Iris and Caspian were magic together. Despite their struggles and the toxicity, I really feel that they were meant for each other. I’m so glad that neither gave up. Their HEA was worth it.
Now Alexander, their manager….I don’t think I’ve disliked a character as much as I hate him. He was such a low down and despicable person. The additional pain and trauma he inflicted on not only Iris but the other band members was disgusting. He deserves all the hell he will eventually pay.
The entire series was amazing but Iris and Caspian’s story was breathtaking and heartbreaking. It is super emotional and heavy but worth it! Bravo to JR Gray for writing this masterpiece!
- Reviewed in the United States on May 27, 2023I am so happy that Iris and Cas get their happy ending!
I also didn’t think I could hate Alexander more prior to this book, but Gray said ‘guess what!’
Iris definitely had a lot of hurdles to jump in this book. He has deeply ingrained and unresolved trauma and mental health concerns , compounded by years of abuse by his manager and attempting to cope with drugs. He was also supposed to be able to trust his medical professionals and they broke his trust. It made me very happy he was able to find someone he could open up to and allow to treat and help him through his hold and beyond.
It also made me very happy that Iris recognized that he had to make changes to help his mental growth. That’s a hard decision for patients to make and by the end of the book you can tell by Gray’s writing how much happier (not perfect, but better) Iris is.
I’m gonna miss these guys, they will hold a special place in my heart! I can’t wait to read about Royal and Aspen soon!!
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P.S.BReviewed in Germany on March 28, 2024
5.0 out of 5 stars Min. 10 ⭐️ für „Pretty f**cked“ und Pretty Broken“
Wahnsinn, beide Bücher sind einfach ein MUSS und die Hörbücher ebenfalls. Die Story ist schwierig, ja! Und ich konnte mir beim Vorwort nicht vorstellen wie all das schwere Zeug in eine MM Romance passen sollte.. Aber es hat und zwar mit dem nötigen Feingefühl!
- TriciaHReviewed in Canada on June 3, 2023
5.0 out of 5 stars Love this series
I’ve loved every book in this series - and although Pretty Obsessed will always be my favourite, I was blown away by the writing in this one.
*Spoilers and possible triggers follow*
Seeing Iris deal with his mental health was hard and yet hopeful. And the way J R Gray was able have Iris express himself gives an incredible view inside of that struggle to live. That inability to plan for the future because you can’t see past surviving the next hour. And how incredibly exhausting that is. It all comes through so clearly.
Caspian is finally fully revealed and I’m happy he gets his love returned. In the first book he comes off as a bit of a problem but I could see glimpses of the real him through the next books and his strength to accept what Iris is telling him in the beginning of this book is inspiring. He still fights for Iris and for Iris to live. But he’s very aware that at any moment Iris could finally walk off that roof.
Iris wants to push Caspian away in order to save him more pain later. But as Caspian points out - would Iris have given up a single moment of time with his brother to make the pain of losing him less? And does it make it less? Or does it just make you regret the missed opportunities.
On top of all this the band is still dealing with Alexander- who is a complete snake and so horrible you wonder how he even functions in this industry without backlash - but I guess this is the first time he’s tried to exert so much overt control. The band has friends though and Alexander is dealt with although that story isn’t done yet. At least the band is more free than they were.
Looking forward to the next one!
- NicanneReviewed in the United Kingdom on November 16, 2024
5.0 out of 5 stars Brilliant emotional ride!
📚Book = This is book 2 of a duet - each book has a new couple (series has interconnected characters and continuing back story)
💕Burn = Med,
🎭OW/OM Drama = No,
🔥Heat/spice = 4/10,
😬Angst = Med,
🍆🌮 MM/FF = Yes, MM
🔸POV = 1st Person, MPV,
🔸Genre = Contemporary Romance,
🔹Tropes = MM✨Friends to Lovers✨Lots of hot chemistry✨self doubt and insecurity✨Rediscovering & connecting relationship again!
😈Kink = None really!
‼️Triggers = Massive Drüg use❗️Alcöhol❗️Meñtal health issues❗️Suičidal thoughts & attempts - on and off page❗️Forced rehab❗️Gašlighting ❗️Coërcive Control❗️Manipülation❗️Blackmail
I was really looking forward to hearing Iris and Cas’s story as we’ve seen lots of snippets of them both over the previous three books. I’m really glad they have their HEA after such a massively emotional rollercoaster of a ride!
There was more of ‘present day’ ‘two years ago’ present day’ ‘five years ago’, and so on…..throughout this book like the last, but it wasn’t as confusing this time, it was more on their childhood and how they grew up as well as their growing relationship.
This book focused more on Iris, where his mental health issues stemmed from, how they influenced and structured his daily life. And especially how he struggled just to keep going. I loved how not only Cas but his band brother and their extended partnerships came together to support Iris as well as Cas, just wonderful. A proper loving and supportive found family 💕
This is a very tough and emotional book, with lots of suičidal thoughts, drůg use and meńtal health issues!
- Sue TReviewed in the United Kingdom on August 9, 2023
5.0 out of 5 stars Iris at his worst and best
This series has been hard to read at times, some of the content is harrowing and such major issues as suicide and mental health issues are so well covered.
I almost deducted a star because I felt cheated re Alexander at the end. I think this book will stay with me for quite a while.